Poem: Saving the existence of me.

I am not the one who can save anyone, but I wish I was.

I sworn to protect those I love, with no fear in my heart.

This fire is burning inside of me, telling me how much I hate what I had done.

When I have failed you and made you cry.

And when I have lost you through time..

There is no escape from this mistake..

It is more than I can take..

I wish you were fine and I still swallow my feelings to this day..

Hating that moment that stay in my mind..

Which hurts my soul to the core and torment me like ghosts that haunts me.

I find no line between pain and going in vain.

I feel ashame to be alive, and want to end this cycle of suffering.

But cannot accept the whole thing yet.

Do I matter at all? Or does the wind follow the course of life?

Should I do the same and forget who I was to the beginning?

And run free into this world?

Or let the dark consume me til I am none..

And disappear into the void..

I suffocate in this way of thinking..

It makes me realise how much I am more than enough.

That I am the one to save from all of this.

Even if I know I will be one person and only myself.

At least, my life matter to me now.

And no one shall say otherwise.