Overtime, I got so used to post info dumps on my channel and etc.

This is perhaps my greatest flaw, since I know mystery is more attractive than this.. Sluggish read or lack of keeping more to the attention and etc. I'm doing course control for few weeks, and I still have a need to just post anything about my projects.

But, I am learning to shut it up.

So instead of posting it, I write my secrets and plans and let it there. So if it really matters to me, I can re-read it when I'm happy to see what's cool or not. This is an important process for me, since I stopped going procrastination mode over a couple of weeks. I still didn't posted the best yet, since it's not done and ready.

But I think I managed enough of myself to become greater than I used to be. Anyway, I think it's good that I'm my own parent in a figurative or literal way actually.

I'm thankful to learn even after all I have been through. And I don't think I will stop that anytime soon. Yeah and I am grateful for everybody who was there for me, you guys are sending your optimisism over the years and it has its effect on me.

I thank everyone who mattered in this progression of mine and wish you make you best too!

[This post is mostly about the horror project]

One of the extremely problematic moments I am facing right now, of the bat.

Is that I have too good ideas, but it is a hell lot to program with it. The fact I love my plans but

going through the process is so fucking sluggish and painful to comprehend...

Ah, go figure. Maybe that's why I never finish anything that requires patience and commitment.

But I still continue with this one project somehow, and I can't thank people enough to believe in me. Regardless of the disappointment I must have gived on some of my followers or etc.

I think I will learn from this experience if I just keep going and not get either too cocky or even too far serious in the process. The main goal is to set the stage for me and to not give myself a couple of obstacles that will drastically end it all.

So I better have to take time on the little steps that matters instead of rushing and smashing my head on a wall by mistake. If I can speak figuratively, it is quite a ludicrous project with something I am not ready for.

But fuck it. I rather do it without the experience or etc than never accomplish anything. Even if I came up with just a semblance of what I aim for, I think it might be enough to start with that next time.

It's good to have any payoff instead of a major disappointment over nothing. Anyway, that and the weapons are awesome to imagine so far.

Story is half cooked, still have few hiccups with the narrative or the pacing. But I doubt I can focus much on this part yet. The gameplay must feel right first and the rest will make sense once one part of it works.

But I think the "deaths?" moment I'm making will be good to make both male and female protagonist(s) not entirely attractive. Since, lets say. Making an attractive man or woman will put people in a wrong foot.. Or I could just don't care about it and make them attractive.. Still need to take time to wonder if 'slightly ugly or highly attractive' have either a meaning to add them in.

Characters are also cool, few I didn't posted and I avoid categorically to explain anything about them beside the obvious. Will not tell why or where this 'world' is about or going to.. I made a couple of hot girls, but I need to make less of that now. I want to make variety and no bias in the horror and gore too. Everyone can dies and no holding back.

Since I think giving 'plot armor' on any character will feel cheap and obvious.

One horror franchise mindset I love, is the final destination curse. But I won't

make that a stable in my project, just a 'soft similarity' around the idea that

every characters can and will die in someways. Still want to add good endings

and the optimal ending were everyone is alive or most of them.. Will figure that

shit out if its possible though.

see ya.

My horror project is going fine. I know I had alot of other stuff going few weeks ago.

But this idea sticked with me, and I am really into it. Anything I was focused on won't be done for a while. And I promise I will return to ordinary projects after it's finished. But I'm too invested into this one.

My real life is going smooth, plus I am working on a side job that will help me more financially.

Like car washing and lawnmower man contracts.

Will not say a date or any huge details. Except the porn story I am going to make later on will still be posted one day. Just much later than I was going for, will make few side stories arc if I can do that or etc.

But the horror project is a thing I feel that it would be better to do now. Halloween is like in 4 months. Which will give me enough time to craft the concept and maybe do a prototype beforehand.

That's all folks.

I wrote 2 scripts in horror and to be honest the ideas are horrifying to rethink of it after a while.

But I'm not talented enough to draw all these stuff. And I don't think just making a book or etc

will flesh out the concepts I made.

Maybe a game would work, yet I feel its something I should not push on me and just wait to get the resources. Since it really feels like high pressure to start with nothing on these space horror content.

But reading what I made is really a big thing that I rarely seen in movies or it's usually barely touching the depth of what horror is. Anyway, I will keep it secret and not reveal anything yet.

Alright, so. For a couple of months, I'm going to do basic stuff and hyper ugly animation.

Like not even trying to be realistic or accurate to real life. Trying comedic, violence, sex and

maybe horror shorts.

Here is a quick gif I made that does rotations. I'm a little surprised it looks just like it is.

I'm aiming to all ratings as much as possible this time and just for the fun of it.. Or simply experimenting with new ideas.

One of few things I want to discover is how to make a good sense of humour and comedic timing.

Plus animations that are slightly harder to pull off over time. First months are going to be rough

stuff and etc.

I don't aim at perfection, neither totally shit content. But you get the idea!

It's going to get messy!

Back to the lab!

I'm saying this as a fatigue rather than a disdain to it, but I'm kinda done drawing new female characters with big boobs or big butts and hips etc.. I think I will make them mature, yet with delicate features unstead of the usual exaggerated body types.

Or just plain natural, if I can be clear in just a word.

To put it simple, I want to have more range than this, seriously. Same thing goes to men as well. I might try to make them less muscular or well fit. Maybe even try various fat or slim bodies to both sexes and so on and so forth.

I don't want to isolate my artstyle to one thing and become less and less experimented. Dunno if anyone gets my drift or anything. But even if sexy bodies sells (Not in my case though) I think doing something more charming than sexy. Would help me to see beauty beyond just one thing or etc.

Kinda want to try a similar kind of mindset with writing style and etc. If I have a writing style that is.

I posted 3 of these pictures, knowing it didn't fit fully on my screen. But I got two variants if some prefer the upper view or the other. Anyway, I play Balatro and seeing Xbox using this meme was just funny shit to me.

I worked on a prototype for a year now, made the game working in my own plot and gameplay.

The only problem I have, is that the software is so.. Outdated and cannot be modded.

But I figured many solutions because of that problem.

It's just the artstyle isn't from me, but from that program and I hate the blend look it gives.

So I will keep working on it, to learn everything I can do with that.

And will get something else once I got a better version, and make my own artstyle.

The story is what I was into, and the puzzles gameplay is another thing I love

about it.

The only stuff I aim with this secret game I work with, is to use all the dystopian, twisted and perverse ways modern society uses against you. To make you think you know what you're doing. Psychological horror, the mundane life and the forced rules of society that creeps on your skin.

And, I am not aiming to a social commentary or anything. Cuz its usually a satire effect on that sort of level. But I ain't going to avoid it either if it fits in few times. Just don't want it to make the game feels too out there.

It's the kind of premise I am working on right now, rated M of course.

And.. I dunno how to put a disclaimer that doesn't suck yet.

But I really want to reach a level of depth and maturity that

I never reached in the narrative in a game like this one.

The lore is my main focus aswell, so I need to take time plus I need to try it so many times. To understand if it sucks or not. So far, there is alot of rough edges, but the idea is right there.

It takes time to make something worthwhile, and I want it to be replayable and have stuff that is New game+ if it's possible for me. Alright, done my usual report on myself and I will go back to my craft.

Moving on.

For now on.

I won't bring up my struggles and so on. I never wanted to talk about all these landlord shit and whatever to begin with. But I needed a spot to vent. Yet, I think cooling off and let the dust set will help me to get more happy now. The fucker is in big trouble, and I don't need to say one more thing about it.

Will post only about writing, art and music if I am progressing on anything of that sort. And animation is somewhat starting too.

It's going to be hard to call me fake in the back or in my face btw. And, I ain't really bothered by that either. Keep talking bitches.

I love you all~

Moving on.

I just want to add this here, I got the final verdict and yes. We did do a second part on court with the landlord's Bullshits. And me and my family can stay in our home without any fear that he evict us. Plus, the judge is going to make him pay with money and probably he's going to jail in the future for... Tax invasion, lying in court on oath and many, many other stuff. Anyways, lets see how it goes for this scumbag.

I rarely enjoy someone's downfall. But this liar and soon to be legit criminal. Is going to regret all the hell he caused to me and my family. When even the neighbours helped us out, and now all hate him for being so irresponsible and scummy.

I can only thanks everything and the justice to finally happen against thief like this human trash. Can't wait for him to sell off his porche he kept parking in front of our home and sell the block. But, I feel like karma won't go easy with that living shitstain of society.