I'm listing everything I might work for this month.

dunno what will come out, but I hope it works.

Maybe a game or a comic or both.

14 February is Valentine's Day.

Wish in advance to everyone who got a lover

or someone close enough to make them their

valentine. Everyone deserve someone in their

life.

Fun fact: I never had a valentine ever, dunno if things may change. But I'm no more trying.

So, I keep myself silent over this one.

The landlord tried 2 more times to lawsuit us

for the exact same problem he himself didn't want to

fix in our apartment..

That is third and definitive time by the way. I hope..

Spoiler alert, we won! Three in a row baby!

What a fucking moron.

I swear it all started because HE didn't want to fix the freaking walls, the bathroom

and the air conditioners that doesn't work since we entered in this place 4

years ago. Blaming us for the troubles that other former occupants complained

many times over the last decade.

He even dared to remove the reports after we told him the truth, by someone

he paid to get rid of it.. That's illegal, but after we warned the high up.

The reports was found a year later.

Whatever, we won.

And now he, by the law. Must pay the fixing and he cannot do it himself too.

Since it's not legal to do so, yep. That fucker just find out that being obstinated to not

take responsability over his own property will have consequences in right due time.

Anyway, so we will just get 500$ from that 3 years long bullshit and the apartment will become

more acceptable to live in. Since the rent is dirt cheap compared to the +1200$ around

in our town. We pay 750$ and 300$ more for the water and electricity.

I just hope the walls get fixed and we don't have to deal with the water infiltration.

Because it is a pain to avoid furnitures getting destroyed by it and then

it start to rot. With spores and all the shit I have dealt with last year.

Victory is ours.

So far, I have done alot lately on paper, thanks to my chromebook deleting my files.

I re-write my stuffs based on pure memory and I'm able to work with it.

Drawed once more on paper after so long.

It's surprising how I still can do it without struggle. I though working on

computer would have diminished my former skills on.. lets say stone age

tools. I know it's not that old but in this era, pen and paper isn't the way

to show your work online.

(Professionally speaking, I still think its very good to do so. Physical arts are better shown in art gallery

and all that. But online you need proper gear of course.)

Anyway, everything works.

But I won't be able to show off the paper work since my phone is broken

and I cannot buy another one yet. I will save up money for new stuff

and since I'm part-timer after the holidays.

Can't really do bigger things now, bills are a priority and I will just buy another

Construct 3 subscription to practice yet again to make a game.

My Armed slime files are fully deleted, and the prototype of Armed slime 2 is gone as well.

I will just redo everything from scratch and memory I guess.

I will drae stuff on my chromebook just to be able to post something, the quality might

take time to get back to it. Since I usually work on many at once and wait until I

can post one after the other. So I get a consistant rate of uploading.

But now it's no more the case, because I have none of my work done yet..

Alright, just posting this blog page for the sake of moving on.

Also I think about making my own job or company. I'm sick of working for someone who always

seem to see me as a replaceable number and not being so important.

I just want to be my own self man at this point.

Don't think I want to be a billionaire, but just being able to substain

myself with my own efforts and having no one to judge my work

all day long.

Seems fair and square.

take care everyone.

I'll maybe do either a game or something interesting in comic stuff.

Related to Valentine's Day. I'm taking saved cash for that. Since

I'm a part-timer. I think I want to return to study and go for

computer science to learn programming.

For the game I might try to use construct 3 and do a puzzle like game.

The comic might be for adults or mature audience.

I will take time to relax for now and try to recover some confidence after

the files getting deleted by my stupid chromebook.

I kinda want to buy a real good computer and maybe blow up the chromebook

with fireworks or etc. In a very far place with no forest around of course.

I just want to satisfy my rage.. lol

Anyway, I am feeling good even with

the lost of my files and whatever.

Also, I play Skyrim on my old PS3 that I dusted off from my stuff.

Still working fine and I'm using glitches to become a billionaire

in skyrim. At least I can feel good after all this bullshit.

Since my Chromebook deleted all my files that have 2 years and 6 months worth of progress.

I will set myself a new goal February and just take it easy.

I'm still mad at the reality that my chromebook got corrupted

because of a faulty recharge cable and it cannot set itself in

sleep mode.. Somehow and lost all the battery while I was asleep.

That's why it powerwashed itself it seems, unless someone hacked

me while I was listening ocean waves on youtube that night

with my chromebook on. But I doubt that's the case.

Anyway, I'm alive. So I rather take less focus for the past day's event and

just do something easier. I think I'll do a video game or just write

something on my blog or even do a 1 shot story on my profile page in text.

I am really frustrated to see my projects gone without a trace..

Some was finished and others were just thrown ideas for

later after I'm breaking through. I even planned a big game

to work in secret with a check list and the summary of

the plot that I don't even remember right now.

I wrote it in june.. The reason I left it there is because I don't have

the gear to make it right now or the ressources.

Guess I will just set for less quality content for the time being.. Fuck.

Also I may use a pen and paper to write shit on from now on

and also buy some USB keys to save up stuff with that in mind.

I need to not care about my whole fucking work being lost.

It's just piss me off. But I still think I got experience even

with that sad result.

I will relax and cool off for maybe few days.

I am literally angry right now. My chromebook literally powerwashed my files

and I lost all my writing scenarios, scripts, and ideas that I saved up on my chromebook.

Sincerely, thank you Google.

I am done for this month. I'm so fucking done. Everything is fucking gone!

I got no more drawings, all my art files.. Documents that I kept for myself for later. Gone.

This is horridious.. I just can't believe all my work is deleted. I'm fucking sad!!

Man what the fuck is wrong with this piece of junk!

I need a break.

Bye.

For the last year, I failed at making few things.

The manga project was left behind.

The games ideas too..

I still have time to make it right and I need to accept that I'm alone in this.

It's not like I'm paid too. So basically if I want to achieve my goals, I have

to structure my artistic skills. And stop seeing it too far from what's possible

for me to do right now.

I usually have this road block, that is often the vision of everything.

It's nothing like the white page syndrome, but rather the reverse.

I see all what my project looks like, what is the idea and the theme.

But then I get fatigue from doing everything all at once.

I think this year will be about focus on what is possible and not just going

in a "what if" motive. Maybe I will try to do something impossible next year

or etc.

But I need to give myself some room and limit the ideas too.

I'm a visioneer that have no footing. So I rather stay able

to set foot on the ground, rather than going in the clouds.

Yeah, I'm metaphorical. Anyways..

I will stay optimistic and try to give myself a tap on the shoulder

every now and then. When I make something small for now.

Maybe going gradually bigger, but not too big in the long shot too.

What I need to experience in this year, is to learn consistency

and build strong fondations on my artistic vision.

Being less thinking about things too.

That's it for today on my blog.

Have a great day anyone who read my thoughs.

See ya!

I always loved seeing Jennifer Connely ever since Labyrinth. In 1998 she played a role

in the movie Dark City, a thriller sci-fi. She is the embodiement of pure beauty without

exaggeration. There was just something in her that I never saw in any other woman.

Her voice is ethereal as well and her eyes just gives you the desire to be her knight.

Too bad I was like 5 when I first ever saw her. But still, I got taste at that age.

Over the past months, I got so many songs I wrote that I discarded from

my notepad and got rid of in here too.

I dunno, maybe I am too judgy over my writing or maybe I just feel like

it doesn't sound like the original thing I had in my head.

I have often either that guitar that start and this drum following with it.

Then some words occur and then I grab my pencil and write it..

And I hate what I have written..

This is really a waste of my potential.