Strangely enough, I don't even bother about my age that much anymore.

I am quite resolved to accept myself to be still young.

But not in a naive way, I just did some large introspection

over the fact keeping your cup empty is better

for learning and understanding.

(It refer to the story I heard. About the monk who teach a man to not be full of thoughs.

To allow himself a easier life.)

Over the time, I got wiser in some aspect of my life.

I also got close calls in to dying..

Like 4 times in over my lifespan..

So I am grateful to live and to be able to age properly.

It's a privilege on the long run, I started to do training

on a routine too. Lost like 45 lbs in fat, got more in shape.

(Over 6 months of constant efforts daily)

Since Covid-19, I got lazy over making so many simple choices in life.

Like just walking outside.. Yeah I got rid of that problem this year

and might be able to get some physical feat if I keep going on

that level.

Like rising my strenght, endurance and agility.

Oh, and I read non-fiction too.

Kinda tired to read stuff that isn't technically knowledge..

So I am quite literally heading to reach some point where

I won't recognize myself as a lazy dude.

But as a man who own himself and his prowess without the

recognition of others.

Back in my youthful and credulous teenage life. I used to think

people might help me to succeed in everything..

That idea was really naive, and I am happy to have been that

way. I'm not punishing myself to be an innocent kid from this

matter.

To my personal understanding. I accept who I am, who I was and

hope to be someone that will take the role to be a man of his words.

I don't know much about the rest of this life, but that's what I work on.

Anyway, I wish myself a wonderful birthday in advance.

Hope everyone have an happy halloween too.

See ya