I use TDD for The Detective's Diary. Since the title is a bit long to add it there.

Anyway, here is why I kinda avoided posting on my story for.. 3 or 4 months.

The format of how I used to process the narrative was mainly focused on John

being by himself. But, since I added so many characters and possibilities.

It scared me to a degree I am nervous on what to add or not. That might suit

the theme. Cop thriller was a thing that motivated me back in almost 2 years

ago.

But I feel the story of John W. Colts isn't a full cop thriller. There is so many aspect I loved

in it to put here and there. Since from the start. Minus the clonage part. I remember exactly why I placed this in the story.

And I wish I had though of something else sometimes. Since I rushed this part to move out of the slow pacing it went with.

I was a beginner, and I think it's fine. But it's just annoys me to add such a big sci-fi part in that story. It wasn't planned.

Well, alot of great things came out of unplanned content in the narrative. Even some payoffs.

I think the friends of John are a bit too much young for him. Making him feel like the Logan in the X-Men or etc. The old, seasoned warrior sorta. With kids who barely know a thing. It's how I feel it when I re-read or think about the future of my story.

I want to write again in it, but I added a murder case in between the slice of life that I didn't fully instored. Doing a flash forward was... Okay at best. But with the months I took to rethink my plot and do some side stuff for those last months.

I dunno, I still want to finish this. But I don't want to ruin the whole story by rushing it.

The story is in my mind, just that I'm afraid to put too much that wouldn't make sense.

Not a blockage, more like a will to not fuck up something I took 2 years to achieve so far.

But the idea to never finish my first story pains me more than ruining it though.

So, I will have to do something. Anything to make it amazing.

Flaws are what makes great book real, I think.

Anyway, I ruminated enough for today.

Was constructive to figure myself out.