Yup, it's almost over.

Hope it was fun!

So I basically keep on jumping to idea to ideas.

I think I see a pattern in my mind, I need to figure out by myself that

to become someone trustworthy. You need to start and finish

your projects.

I used to do this alot in my childhood, so this is basic behavior

to me. Even now I still have this problem and want to make something

else.. It's a little scary.

So I need to settle down and keep my ideas for later.

My main project now is a game with a crew that is willing to finish it.

I don't want to skip that opportunity or let anyone danm.

Got to say I was not ready for this, but hey I am just honest.

I think working for what you love is better than doing something that you

truely hate. And now that I find whar is my problem.

I have to focus on this now, still got 7 months to finish that project.

Will update the game in around 2 or 3 days.

I hope so, still got bugs to fix.

I will get the money next month and buy my subscription.. Got to say I am ready for now, but need to wait.

I work on the story while waiting.

Once I get this I will update frequently my game and try to fix bugs.

Still got 7 months to make this happen.

My team is getting bigger everyday too.

Never though I would finally make this come true.

Anyway, I wish everyone a good time.

Hey, just made the beta test available to my crew.

If you are interested to tip your toe in this spooky game I am creating

and want to add stuff with me.

DM me and I will add you in the beta testers!

Thanks all!

Just to let you know, I started to make a game last week and made a small crew.

Now I just need to set the thing completely.. I am kinda tired and the test game

is buggy. Yet still playable, but I try to fix like the jumping mechanic and

the frame conflicting with another frame when you touch a wall..

I need more time to adjust on what to do with the intro and the first level..

Here is a look on what I did this week end.

Yeah, 3 days of full work and its still buggy as ever..

Anyway I will try to make something good, oh and I am still limited to 50 events..

Have do buy that subscription next month and etc.

Other than that, I just quit my job and will get money next week to pay everything.

I might probably start doing full time programing or go to school again.

Or I might just buy a book about animation, art, programing and computer science.

It did be cheaper and whatever.

I have like 7 months to finish this game, and want to be a game developer now.

Still trying to be self employed. I think its the right choice for me.

Thanks to @perkgrok for the art style. I can now focus on the gameplay and

stop trying to make bad animation sprites.

I am still accepting people in the crew, if you want to be a voice actor or actress

who voice the characters. DM me.

I still need music and backgrounds designs.

Anyway, the gameplay is working right now.

I just have problems with the braking animation when you stop running.

But other than that its fonctional.

April is near, I will be able to buy 1 year subscription of the Construct 3 engine

and work better with it.

Right now I am testing rather than making it, but its necessary.

I just don't want to rush the progress, and the game will

appear on newgrounds at 31 October 2024!

Two days after my birthday, ahah.

Anyway I need some sleep, see ya.

Here I share some knowledge I found myself through time itself.

Time is your sand in the hourglass, something that you cannot stop

or pause at some point.. I know its stressful.

But the idea that most humans doesn't value what time is, is the scary part.

We live, we age, we lost parts of ourselve to get new things.

Like maturing and being less naive. In exchange of losing the ignorance

but getting wise everyday.

When we are kids, we don't think much of these..

But when we get in our twenties, something shift.

We start to see that time cannot be bought back, you know.

This is why I don't waste time deliberately.

Because time is the most precious thing on earth.

And I am quite aware of that fact myself.

You see, we are not immortals.. We all going at the same destination at some point.

And that's why I don't like the idea to be alone the whole time.

I prefer to be at peace, for sure.

But imagine being always alone and.. Living nothing at the end.

Blame it on society system, or education.. Etc.

But being alone and being responsible isn't the fun part in life.

We are social and quite frankly need communication in our life.

We need to feel that life itself as value, and that people around us matter.

Like having friends, family and a loving partner.

I am at my thirdies right now, and still young.

But that's the thing, not everyone made it at my age..

I know some of my friends didn't come back, some are stuck in the past..

Or worst.

This is why I think life matter, and that time is beautiful.

Because we don't have it indefinitely.

We are here for either a reason, or just to be alive.

To my part, I want to be the best at what I am doing in life.

I just hope life get better for most of the people I know, can't control that.

But that's what I want for my group of friends.

I don't think being the only one who is happy is the good ending for me.

I just want people to value time and make the best things happen.

You know, get that project done. Get that person you have a crush on know your

true feelings, train to become stronger at any skills or physically speaking.

Enjoy life, try new things that get you out of the comfort zone that keep you away

from adventures.

Yeah, life is an adventure.

Not a boring memory of just remembering that you watch TV for motnhs, or work for someone

who think you don't matter at the end..

You know what I am talking about, life is good.

You just don't allow it that way sometimes.

That's what I used to think back then.

Anyway, I hope someone out there live the best things in life.

Thank you for reading this.

Take care.

I used to be a member of a manga club back 13 years ago.

My friends wanted me to join them because I was

passionate in art and they needed a fifth member to

officially open the club.

I was 17 years old, clueless of what this moment

was for me. Minecraft was getting popular back then

and my friend Frank and I played the shit of that.

While we weren't at the club and etc..

After a year of practicing manga art, and yet turning into more cartoony style.

We all begun our journey as a club through that time.

Frank was the musician, Caro was the leader, mary was the talented one,

Tifanny was the spark of the group. Always bringing new ideas and all that..

And I was the jack of trades.. Literally.

Through time, the club become somewhat famous among the city..

We started small.. Then 10 people were there.. 20.. 30..

Til we reach 40 or etc.. It was actually scary.

Everyone wanted to be in the club, even the none artistic ones..

That was the new "Problem" for us after 3 years of getting somewhere.

But that's why we took some time to get out of the comfort zone

and went to camping all together.

We made like 3 manga magazines.. We got in few newspaper

in the local cities.

But, like anything that is great.. It wasn't going to keep up like this.

The place we set the club shut down, the funds to keep it alive

and the fact the government wasn't interested anymore

to pay for the art community took a toll over time..

So we all separated..

I keep in touch with few of my friends.. Well I tried..

But if you are a grow up like me, you know what happens

after 10 years of not talking to 30 people you barely

took time to hang out with..

My small group of friends decided to go on their paths though..

Mary become a succesful artist.

Frank is still going strong in music.

Caro become a guy..

And I didn't heard of Tifanny much..

But hey, I wish them the best in life.

Anyway, for my part in this.

I just miss the old time, to be fair.. I wouldn't mind a reunion of the OGs.

We were friends and we never said we hate each others ever.

It's just I lost them while going my way..

I miss them.

Anyway, thanks to anyone who read this.

bye.