This song played in few short videos. And I almost never found it.

Now I did.

It's called Void in Blue by Glare.

The intro is pure bliss. But the rest is a little bit less interesting..

Anyway I'm happy to have finally found it.

https://youtu.be/n8Rp_5lvhFI?si=Ln9ZGSzMUBdopRoC

I fucking don't know what to say beside this.

Mike didn't got KO'd.

But Jake won.

I feel empty. That fight was just a sad joke.

A fucking sad, bad joke.

Tonight I am going to watch the fight.

To be honest I think Mike is not in shape

anymore for this.

He lost his edge and Jake is young and all ready to

piss him off.

I just think it's a joke. All for looking better against the

mighty Mike Tyson.

It's gonna be hard to see the guy who helped Ali to

get his revenge. Being beat up in his 58.

He could win, but yet the fight didn't even started right now.

Let's see how it goes.

For a while, I have tried to make projects work well.

But I must be honest.

I'm starting to feel afraid of not making sense in my work

as an artist and story teller..

I dunno why I'm so hesitant, even though I keep making good

progress overall. I have this fear to fail at what I love to do.

Back when I was a kid, I used to be confident and didn't cared

very much of whatever I drawed.

Until I showed my stuff to my friends, family members and etc..

Most of them where just unimpressed. Or just say "Yeah, it looks cool."

But. I dunno, I just felt let down.

Like a wall just crumble on me, like that feeling of seeing people who

don't get the hidden message or the sentiment I put in my craft.

Yeah, I'm just afraid of that kind of outcome.

Will my work be like this in the future?

Will people forget about me when I'm gone for good?

Will all this really matter after all that effort.

Yeah, I know that sort of feeling is scarier when someone like me

go deep into it.

But I think too it won't be enough to worry to much about the upcoming consequences..

Because doing nothing won't do anything either.

So here I am, thinking about what if.

And mostly what not.

To reassure myself and for people who have trust in him.

I think I will add the fact it takes courage to face our

greatest fears.

I'm not really sure if I got the guts to make it right through

all of this.

Time will tell.

For now I will meditate on it, make sure to deal with the last remaining

part of me who seem to dwell on the past.

Anyway, I'm going to work on everything that I kept in the back of

my mind once this doubts in me is over.

Thank you and have a great night anyone who read this.

See ya.

So, I'm starting to think I should buy a skateboard and film myself

with the help of someone of course. And just have footage to

draw with.

I don't like the idea to use footage of other people because it's

their videos and etc.

Dunno how copyrights and the lenght of legal exactitude will stand

with that thing. But I'm not interested to fight with the risk to do

so.

Plus it gives me an excuse to do skateboarding.

It's been years since I do it, so around april when snow

is going to melt. I'll get a skateboard and try to get

someone to film me for free or whatever.

Anyway, just a though I put on my blog log.

Here is a recent video about him.

Eric Barone is really the guy that inspire me to make games.

The fact he made Stardew Valley by himself and created a masterpiece.

This is what a man like me want to do as well.

I open this beer to my family bloodline.

Armand and Alphonse. My great uncles

who are brothers of my grandfather who

fought in World War II.

Thank you for serving your duty in the army.

I wish I knew who served in World War I in

my family.. But I don't right now.

I pay respect to you and pray for your eternal

resting in heaven.

God bless my country, I salute to my fellow allies americans

and those who protected their countries in hard times.

Thank you.

Amen.

25 september 2024.

My family won the case against my landlord.

We received the verdict by mail around middle

of October.

Our apartment is still in shambles.

Landlord have the obligation to pay professionals to repair the apartment

and pay us a 500$ fine.

And I mean by this, he literally went back to Mexico to relax and

drink a margarita. Without doing anything.

Spineless freak.

7 out of 11 occupants of the block we live in

move out this july. 4 apartments are not

registered in the official adresses system.

Meaning the landlord get away with taxes,

and get literally full money of the rent for

himself.

We brought this up in the case, judge didn't

bat an eye. We paid around 2500$ to win

the case and got 500$ and a 10% rent reduction

for the former payments.

That's all we got in return..

We got less mold problems because we put 2 dehumidifiers

ourselves. He didn't paid anyone for these 3 years to fix any

water infiltrations that went through our walls.

My room is condemned since one year and half.

I sleep on the couch.

We attempted to move out through all this time.

Rent is 700$ plus 250$ for electricity and water.

The apartments around us is now worth 1250$ and 300$

for water/elec. Since we stayed there and it keep

getting higher.

The only reason we still got a low rent, it's because way stayed.

The landlord tried to rise the rent many times too.

Since we interfered with his maneuver, he got really made

at us. Because all the other landlords does this and we

are the rare ones who stop him so by legal ways.

He lay block bricks on our road entrance out of vengeance

when the case started to get in our favor. Threatened

to kick us out and said things that I won't mention here.

We recorded him on that part.

Then proceed to tell every neighbors that we were bad people,

saying the most ridiculous things you could hear of it.

They vandalised my mom's car. 5 times.

He rent the entrance road to a neighbor too while removing the brick wall.

After the case was settle and we received the final verdict.

The landlord went silent, took his porsche and let to Mexico.

I'm honest, even if we won on this one.

It kinda hurts to see how much the laws

and the authorities close their eyes on

people who got the money.

The police told us that he used to sell cocain

and ask us to not be in his way..

I just wish Justin Trudeau was kick out of being

Prime Minister and anyone that will stop this

none sense to happen. Not just to us.

Plus, if I wasn't here to defend my mother for her

safety. She would be homeless or worst.

I used to plan to leave and going in an apartment

alone. But since I saw how much the landlord

is a piece of shit.

I stayed, and I'm glad my mother is safe.

Let's hope I got money enough to make her retire from this

and move on to live my life by myself again.

But right now family is what I fight for.

Have a good day.

Overall I know a deadline works for most people.

I think for me it doesn't work that well.

I commited to few collabs and projects over this year

that is coming to an end. 2024 was a great year for

me, even with the bumps on the road and whatever

problem I got in life.

I keep going.

I wish people who hate me or love to be happy in life.

My motivation is unbroken, I have alot to work with in

the comic.

I'm tired to speak about it too, and just want to get

things done. This might be my last post of this year

too. I don't care.

But what I want to have in my work space, is fun.

Freedom, authenticity, good criticism and the ability

to make something without pressure.

November went big, for America. I'm happy

to see things work well for them and I am

not going to bring politics in here.

Overtime, I think I learned alot and I doubt I'll be able

to learn everything. Ever.

But what I am happy to be, is to be myself.

Here and in life too.

I'm just a guy who live for fun, essencially.

Anyway, wish everyone on newgrounds a successful november.

Hope to make stuff work well on my part.

I will work on the remaining collabs I commited to.

Then start the main project.

This will take me sometime. A time that I am okay to use for this.

Thank you.

Good bye.

My patreon feel like a sore thumb right now.

I dunno what to do with it, but it's been like a month since I check on it.

Kinda shifted to a different way of thinking right now and I have no

idea what to add on it in that sense.

I'm a little tired to draw NSFW drawings. I did that for like months, I know.

But I have so much work to do in other things.

It feels like a different world for me now.

I don't hate it, I just feel like my values on art overal is way different than this today.

Maybe I should take time to think about it before doing anything next.

Anyways, I'm still working on the comic right now.

Got a dozens of scenes that are coming together without forcing it too.