Well, first of. I think starting back like four years ago with only this chromebook

and drawing with a freaking mouse seem impressive.. Yet also painful.

I upgraded my knowledge and even become less limited in creativity. which is

what I aim for ever since I started out. Though right now, I seem to lack consistency

and go a little too farfetch in my visionary projects..

Well, failing isn't a big deal for me anymore..

Although, I think people might judge me as a unreliable

person for now, at least.. Can't really do much better after so many attempts to break

through. And I tried to give up too.

But my brain loves making arts and ideas. Experimenting with like, the muse in mind, the visionary

sight I have when I pass in the large scale of possibilities and so on..

Or the message I want to put in some artwork.

My quality sometimes is top notch, or just less than expected.

For now I try to learn how to make flowers, or other things sometimes.

Used to make like OCs for fun. Just to stick out of the loop of nameless

characters or to not get involved on a major big project.

I sorta went on an escapisism phase for a while, and now I'm just realising

what it's looks like.

To be honest, I feel like I made good efforts. Did some great stuff last years

and even begin to feel confident in being reliable to others. Sometimes.

I'm not an expect or a professional guy. I don't think I will ever be that type

of person who just don't talk and just work. Then ignore everyone like

if they never mattered to begin with.

Maybe I'm just human, and allow myself to be vunerable. Even with the risks and

what not. I guess I'm not the guy who likes to be silent completely like any

popular NG users out there.

Oh, and I don't really care of being popular anyway.

Never was my main focus when I started this on day one.

I believe I just wanted to feel connected in someway

with other people like me.

People who are just unique, being themselve and even with the dilemma

of maybe being reject or not. I decided to give myself a chance.

Letting everyone treats me like they treat themselves.

I guess that's how I deal with everything.

So yeah, I did good things the past few years.

And failed too.

I'm not a failure neither a fully remarkable artist yet.

Just a normal guy who thinks he can make a thing

or two out there.

With even my visionary personality

which dreams to go beyond what is my

own limits..

I think I might succeed.

If I stop stopping at it.

Or just maybe get help

from friends who want

the same outcome as I do.

It simple as that for me.

Good night everyone,

and I wish you all the best.

Thank you.