So I made a few concepts of bosses that are new..

But that will be a pain to figure out how to make them possible.

Story mostly done.

Now the hard part.

It's 16 February. Nothing really special, just saying the date

so I can go back and count how far I will progress in this

new goal I will set to myself.

What I'll do is to work on something and post like just the first thing

after I finished the second thing. It's a sort of training I'm trying to do.

Might take me.. MMhh.. A while to make it doable.

So I can like prep my brain on becoming truly consistent in making work

and having stuff ready to post if I ever got shit going on in real life.

Also I got few USB keys to save my projects. Wish I didn't got through that

fucking files corruption at the end of January I think.

My keyboard seem to not work properly.. Sometimes. That's annoying.

Ah, anyway. For now I will avoid explaining or telling what I'm working on.

I think adding a feel of mystery on how I operate will payoff.

Just need to stop losing my progress this time.

That's it. See ya all.

Got no valentine or even any candidates. Honestly, I don't mind it.

I'm going to fill my belly with chocolate anyway.

It's the art of not giving a fuck, right?

Loving yourself is better with those specific conditions too.

Plus I guess I could draw something on that day.

If I really feel romantical or beyond that..

Ah, we will see.

Ever since I was 10 years old. I always was drinking coffee..

So, it's got a hold on my habits and I oversleep many days through my life because of staying up

late with the 'help' of cafeine. Of course it's my fault.. Kinda. But I want to skip this habit

and re-learn to enjoy just one cup per day.. Or even less.

Plus I love adding sugar and milk and other things.

Like almond milk, caramel flavor or anything similar.

I know perfectly how to brew coffee. My whole family prefer that I do it myself

unstead of my mom or sister or even my big bro. When we do like Risk Games

overnight together.

Anyway, I think I deserve to get a change of pace.

And maybe I should become a barista if I'm so good

at brewing coffee. I could buy a cheap book about it

in a thrift shop.

Like learn the add-ons or the coffee types solely to be good when I get in the job.

Could tell the manager I'm trash and then just surprise everyone in rush hours..

Ah, just a fantasy of mine.

Kinda need to have a better sleep schedual. 2 AM is not recommended to any adults.

At least for me, I prefer to see the sunlight and walk outside to see nature when

it isn't asleep.

I don't like walking late at night.

So yeah, coffee isn't good anymore for me. Even if I may drink some the very next

day and repeat myself. I don't care, just want to mark my words and try to follow them.

February 11 2025 is the day I mark as I stop drinking coffee.

Yeah, some may say beer, alcohol, drugs and sex is more hard to stop.

But cafeine is the bad habit I have exclusively. Yeah, I'm that boring..

Alright, I'm heading to bed and will work on some stuff I won't explain.

Just so the goblins in the shadows won't laugh *with proof* at my failures again.

See ya.

Well, first of. I think starting back like four years ago with only this chromebook

and drawing with a freaking mouse seem impressive.. Yet also painful.

I upgraded my knowledge and even become less limited in creativity. which is

what I aim for ever since I started out. Though right now, I seem to lack consistency

and go a little too farfetch in my visionary projects..

Well, failing isn't a big deal for me anymore..

Although, I think people might judge me as a unreliable

person for now, at least.. Can't really do much better after so many attempts to break

through. And I tried to give up too.

But my brain loves making arts and ideas. Experimenting with like, the muse in mind, the visionary

sight I have when I pass in the large scale of possibilities and so on..

Or the message I want to put in some artwork.

My quality sometimes is top notch, or just less than expected.

For now I try to learn how to make flowers, or other things sometimes.

Used to make like OCs for fun. Just to stick out of the loop of nameless

characters or to not get involved on a major big project.

I sorta went on an escapisism phase for a while, and now I'm just realising

what it's looks like.

To be honest, I feel like I made good efforts. Did some great stuff last years

and even begin to feel confident in being reliable to others. Sometimes.

I'm not an expect or a professional guy. I don't think I will ever be that type

of person who just don't talk and just work. Then ignore everyone like

if they never mattered to begin with.

Maybe I'm just human, and allow myself to be vunerable. Even with the risks and

what not. I guess I'm not the guy who likes to be silent completely like any

popular NG users out there.

Oh, and I don't really care of being popular anyway.

Never was my main focus when I started this on day one.

I believe I just wanted to feel connected in someway

with other people like me.

People who are just unique, being themselve and even with the dilemma

of maybe being reject or not. I decided to give myself a chance.

Letting everyone treats me like they treat themselves.

I guess that's how I deal with everything.

So yeah, I did good things the past few years.

And failed too.

I'm not a failure neither a fully remarkable artist yet.

Just a normal guy who thinks he can make a thing

or two out there.

With even my visionary personality

which dreams to go beyond what is my

own limits..

I think I might succeed.

If I stop stopping at it.

Or just maybe get help

from friends who want

the same outcome as I do.

It simple as that for me.

Good night everyone,

and I wish you all the best.

Thank you.

I went back in Construct 3.

Since all my already made progress was deleted in the corruption of my files on my chromebook..

I just feel the dread I once got through 2 years ago.

Starting with nothing really is painful and the idea to draw every frame to make 1 character

perfectly moveable. With idle animation, not taking pre-made shit from google and trying to stay

original through the whole progress..

With what I made so far in the past, and knowing all the prepping was put in the trash for good.

It's depressing. I just can't stand that feeling in my mind and guts.

Literally a forced "Starting from scratch" for me.

I guess maybe doing something cheap and easy to make would be good for now.

Which wasn't my plan 2 months ago and the last 2 years..

Just venting my frustration on this post to keep me sane in here, but anyway.

Later. Hope to upgrade to a much better computer and finally get some pay off.

ZG out.

So, call me crazy. But for the past 5 weeks..

I keep hearing a piano song in my dreams and even while I am awake.

It's a great ethereal song, mystical with a constant pull to make me create it and funny enough

I never learned piano..

Maybe I should do that.

I removed my commission ad.

Just so I can redo it more properly and be sure it's fitting for me and my clients too.

It will be reposted soon. Sorry if you were trying to look for it.

I'm listing everything I might work for this month.

dunno what will come out, but I hope it works.

Maybe a game or a comic or both.

14 February is Valentine's Day.

Wish in advance to everyone who got a lover

or someone close enough to make them their

valentine. Everyone deserve someone in their

life.

Fun fact: I never had a valentine ever, dunno if things may change. But I'm no more trying.