So, I played guitar back in my 20s.

I search my closet and found that my guitar is broken.

I'll save up like maybe 200$-300$ for it and figure

whatever brand I am getting.

I swear music is essencial for me.

Right now I'm looking for clothing that will fit for Kyle.

(Used random pictures for references on google)

If anyone got any clothing designs, ideas for him

to be featured in the comic.

Send me a message or post some drawings and etc.

I'll credit you and you get the right for the clothing

ideas. Anyone is welcome to get a technically free

ad for their merch in my story.

Up to you, bye.

Specially with my buddies and drinking beers while joking around.

Life changed so much since 5 or 6 years..

People are getting distant, my friends went in their separate ways.

All for the money, like if that's helping it..

I miss laughing with people who gets my jokes and we have

inside stories that we both shares.

Like going biking in the woods, fishing together.

Camping and telling spooky stories..

Damn, I even wish I played Uno with anyone.

Things are not the same today.

Yesterday we went to the old house I lived in back when I was 14 years old.

Nothing changed there. My family know the owner of the house for like a decade

or more. He is a good friend in his 80s.

Returning there was very energizing and I felt like in a dream.

The backyard have a forest of many kilometers long with a small path that exist there even before

I was 14 years old. Went there and explored like I used to.

Now, I live in an apartment in the middle of the city.

But there it's different. Because you have no one

to bother you and whatever.

I even yelled like crazy just for the fun of it.

I had a good time, then we went to see my grandma

in her apartment to celebrate her birthday and

she wished me a birthday too.

We watched TV a bit, a music show and then

left at 8 PM.

I love my family.

Did alot of drawings by hand.

Right now I'm trying to learn

the skate boarding movements

and sports positions.

Really hard to make, but I need to keep going.

I loved playing basket ball while the leaves fallen.

Seeing the sunset before heading home and

staying late watching Harry Potter 1 to 8. (7 is in two parts)

Making coffee in the early morning and go jogging at 7 AM.

Now november is there tomorrow. In Canada it's mostly

the grayest month ever. Then the first snow might fall

in the middle of the month.

I celebrated my birthday alone, but that's okay.

Needed some time to focus on my life, look at

what the future would be interesting if I set

my goals on the right path.

I started to think I might do a Twitch channel

or anything for fun. But no. Not right now.

kinda want to do my projects before heading to

a different directions. I might buy or look for

anatomy books and drawing guides.

I lack motion in my drawings, doing still

positions is really stiff and I just feel like

learning the right way to apply

movements and all.

Might help me.

I'll try to draw all the sports I know.

Did few of that like in summer.

Anyways, November will be fun for me.

Today is my birthday!

I bought my equipment to draw by hand by the way.

Pile of papers ready and will write the first draft

to start with. I might go with a small idea and draw it to

train around the panels, text bubbles and testing how

it might work for creating my own style.

I want to earn my understanding on drawing comics.

Not just think that I know what to do.

Anyways, my birthday is now.

Wish everyone a good time too!

Recently I planned to get some ink pencils and piles of paper to draw by hand.

Got like 60$ for myself and I'm going to use it for making comics.

Will update about it if things are looking sharp.

Still working on the game for few days.

The vibe is good but I lack organization and the story is a bit hard to understand after

I play tested it.. Yeah I don't think it will go out on 31 october. Sorry.

It didn't come out like I though in my head.

I used to stress up and rush back from last year.

Today I feel like I should not work too hard.

Don't want to get discouraged too.

Commitment on your own projects is long process and demands patience.

I hope to make it work right.

I always though maybe having a black cat or just a fish to start it off

might help me stop feeling lonely. You know, it would fill the void in

my heart. Always loved to care for another being.

Also work is kinda boring so I might really need to at least

have a living creature in my room to bring me company.

Over the time of this year. I can count on many good things

and few harsh moments in my year so far.

I'm starting with the positive stuff.

1. I lost 50 lbs. I weight now 240 lbs. Which is very good for me after 6 months of trying to get in shape.
2. Got few projects going, The Detective Diary is now 1 year and 3 months old. Still need to write stuff tho.
3. My script about Kyle Megura is now 1/2 done. The first idea was kinda out there but now I know what to do with it.
4. Draw more, but stopped to dump ideas online. Kinda felt like hidding my good ideas will save me on the long run.
5. Helped many people, did few donations here and there. I'm not saying why or how much.
6. Got a new job.
7. Won the case against my landlord. He stopped bothering us at home and he went back to Mexico.

Now the negative.

1. Did couple of few mistakes on the web. Like speaking my opinion and recklessly say stuff that I won't fully mention.
2. Got few people blocking me and for some reasons that I know or don't.
3. Traced arts like The Robin William's portrait or the Samurai Jack fan art. Lost my Scout for these things.
4. Got few critiques about it over and over.
5. One guy sended me his dick pic.. Like ok?
6. The same dude hacked another account and kept going for like 2 or 3 times in 2 days. (Mods dealt with him after that)
7. Someone harassed me and I decided to block him for being an hard ass.
8. One or two of my friends got their accounts deleted. One woman I respected quite alot too. (Still sad about it)

So, even with those few things around this year. I'm okay with everything and won't really care much

about the past. But I learned alot after all.

I'm not really focusing on my mistakes over and over. I'm mature enough to know when things need to

be looked at and then keep going in another path. Being a responsible adult might be a pain in the ass

but if you want to be great in life. You need to learn what is the struggle of understanding fondamentals.

I'm not really here to say I am better than everyone else or say I am the worst. No.

Maybe it's okay to make mistakes. I don't really care what people think anyway.

Just feel like I need to focus on the parts that really make my life better.

Yeah, so I hope everyone is going great in their lives. And will just

say that my next year will be more time consuming for me to

put things on paper. Like doing my projects that I keep saying

that will be done.

It's not an easy job, but I feel that my mind is more strong than ever.

I think I got what I wanted to get out of my chest.

Anyway, being real in this world always bring me pain.

So fuck with what people think or might hate on me.

I love and respect myself. I trust my instincts and wish that the world work harder to

make a safer place for our future lineages.

That's what I work for in my part. And wish you all a great Halloween.

I ate all the candies btw. lol.

Stay happy!

Edit: I tried to fix the line up for my text but it still looks odd. Sorry in advance.