Done my interview, now I wait..

Today I am getting a new job.

17$ an hour.

Working in maintenance in a spa.

Hope it goes well, I tied my tie and trimmed my beard.

After few months of going outside in the forest and near rivers.

I though myself to accept nature and be thankful for it.

Ever since I was a kid, I learned many secrets of life.

Like about time, efforts and letting go.

Seasons happens because of the planet itself rotate

and our world change for that fact. Animals survived

through all this change and learned to prepare for the

worst. When winter comes, animals eat more, gather

food, build or find refuge.

We humans have made it easier.

Paying bills to stay in a home.

Going to grocery shopping.

I kinda want to do my own prep for winter.

Today I plucked some 4 leaf clovers

and consider myself lucky to be alive.

I treat animals with respect and enjoy the sun light.

My hopes for the world are for the best.

Even if I am not really happy with

what the companies does to society

and our way to get food and water.

Anyway, I will read some books now.

I messed up few lines from The Detective's Diary.

Might ask someone to change couple of some.

I wish TomFulp allowed me to at least correct

it myself but anyway.

Will check what is missing or anything else.

Like the line "I throw a woman at him." Was actually "He throw a woman in my direction."

or something like that.

I swear, I need to read few times before posting my entries.

So, I just wanted to express myself in here.

My cause I took time to pick is Freedom of Expression.

over the 2 decades I watched many change in the public

view and how any form of art is taken.

We used to let people do alot of none sense or great things.

Obviously, some took part in art forms that are not in my interest.

Other did it right for the sake of showing what art can be

in a pure form of telling many stories, feelings and thoughs.

But the things I am attracted to in art is the nature of

being human. What I mean by that, is the fact we have

some many complex ways to adress so much originality.

Yet, society limit artists.

I never liked the education system because of the limits

it push on people. That's why I dropped out of school.

And took my own ways to express myself.

Over the years I have learned to have a sort of detachment

that prevent myself from feeling uneasy by my arts.

Like allowing me to observe and not be taken by emotions

or avoiding risks of censuring my art.

I used to get mad by like just drawing nudes.

And destroyed many arts because I though

I was a perv or anything.

Kinda not the case right now.

Plus I read alot through all this lessons of life.

I still avoid certain basic art taboos for obvious reasons.

But over all I can tell I have improved through this short 3 years.

I didn't used to let people see my stuff.

Since I am a very secretive guy.

Honestly I don't blame myself for that matter.

Because it allowed me to find myself and

let it be.

I usually help people too to connect with themselve.

But right now I kinda realized I am not the best

for such mentoring.

I'm not banning the idea to be clear, it's just I prefer to let people

be and learn on their own.

Just as I did.

I know being an artist is painful, specially for guys. Since there is like a stereotype

of this in the mainstream. Often associated by moral culture and so on.

Anyway, I am not here to judge how the world works.

Fondamentaly. I associate myself as an human being.

And don't get limited by gender or race.

In my code, everyone can be an artist.

Or just can pretend not to be one.

That's sorta fact.

But I do not think people who aren't artist are bad too.

Maybe the next decade will have better opinions.

Or not at all.

I don't really care, so I enjoy being creative and I'm open for expressing myself.

It's my cause. I want to see people evolve over their own terms.

You know, Einstein never liked to follow the rules.

Because he discovered that the educational limits

weren't his thing. So he developped something new.

Without the approval/denial of any dumbass.

That's how I am seeing this point of view too.

Stan Lee was told that Spider-Man was a bad concept for a super hero.

Guess who given a fuck about that?

I swear, sometimes it is better to not care about what people say and just do it.

It doesn't always work. But at least you learn by doing yourself a favor.

Don't let people telling you to be someone you are not.

Anyway, have a great september.

Autumn will be interesting.

Bye.

Went back to write my story I worked on for like a year and a month now.

I was waiting to get a surge of inspiration like I often used to.

Glad I didn't rushed to finish it but yet I need to work my stuff.

Will post another part for the ending of the act 3 of the story of Detective John W. Colts.

The best part is that it came naturally to me. I remember last year I used to stress

and rush parts.. Huh, I wish I could rewind that.

We learn by doing the thing, as I heard somewhere. I dunno.

I will also draw stuff on paper and keep my talent fresh.

Might post something when I feel like it will pay off.

Real life is going okay, paid the rent and got no cash for

any new projects with etc.

So I will focus on stuff that are manageable or just not talk to anyone.

I think being absent helps me to just "Do it and leave it here"

kinda of thing.

I really grown through my last month of socializing online.

Feel that I should focus on things that are essencial

and build myself a reputation from what I do.

Rather then whatever the fuck I would say.

Anyways, hope everyone have a great september.

I'm listening music from Earth Wind and Fire to celebrate

this moment.

Life's good.

Ever since the 2012 movie The avenger came out.

Something switched. The "Self aware movies" started to come out

and many jokes were made to break the immersion when we usually

watch a movie. You know, that feeling like you enter in another

world to see things that normaly doesn't exist.

Yeah, Hollywood kinda ruined that.

I mean, we still got some movies that are made to show a glance of this

lost art of storytelling. But does it feels right? Do we see movies that

are even original these days? Remakes, flat comedy, flat story

over everything.

Sincerity as lost its way in the movies, and I kinda feel like

its alright. Maybe we need to forget the time movies mattered

or had some magic.

So we can start paying for better stuff then these trash that

often come from companies that know zero way to

make honest and crystal clear stories that

people feel its essencial message..

Yeah, Hollywood have no message in their movies

these days. There is not even a sign of compassion

or true freedom in any of it.

Anyway, I rarely watch movies and I think it's better that

I ignore much of the "Modern take" of cinema.

In a more frank way to say this. I think the cinema of today is fully retarded.

They ain't fucking good.

Except John Wick franchise.

I have been working on some stuff.

Won't say what, won't say when.

Just saying I'm just more focused then

before. And it's working.

Sun is out today.

Used to rain for like 3 days in a row

in here.

I am grateful.

I started to reconnect with my childhood recently.

Felt like my youth was adventurous, used to

explore the woods and had many moment

where I saw amazing things in the wild.

Like when the first snow started to fall on the hidden lake

in the back of my house. Or when the night was so bright

because of the moon. I remember my old friends and

me doing camping in the forest. We told spooky

stories and I often was the one coming with

the most original ones. Since I started

writing at age 11. It was like that, I had

so much creativity at this age.

Right now, I feel like I deserve to return to that

kind of inner inspiration. My mother always

told be I was the master of my own imagination.

I am grateful she allowed me to figure it out.

And also told me the balance between real

and unreal.

I read the never ending story back at 11 too.

Finished the Dragon Balls manga of 42 tomes.

Read the Papillon book too around age 12.

I was really not that afraid to read back then,

sadly in school. I didn't had that much

of a privilege to grow.

Even though I learned how to read at age 4

and was pretty darn good in mathematic.

The teachers never liked me, because

I was a little too smart to them. I never

liked following their rules too.

Yeah I was and maybe still is a rebellous kind.

Maybe I didn't changed that much, or did I?