Here is a question that came to me while I was in deep reflection.

Do we matter or does the world matter more?

My answer is, both matter.

We as humans need to accept our lives, and need a planet to live on.

So it is essencial to agree on both matters.

Because if we do not, we will die.

Like that, if I decide that I don't matter anymore. It will be the end of me.

And if the world doesn't matter to me, I sure will die because of that sense of thinking.

So over all, life and death are what made us understand the universe.

We are the only creatures on earth who have capability to craft and destroy.

That inclued ourself..

We can craft our lives, or we can destroy it all..

It is a little scary when I think about it, because the human race is what the planet earth made..

We lived long enough to become the real thing that can change the current time.

But the question is now, what will happen later?

My idea is that the human race will eventually stop doing wrong little by little.

But this is just a theory.

Anyway, that was it about my philosophy.

My story is good, but I realise that I am bad at english..

And I make mistakes in one entry which doesn't follow the chronollogy..

I am so sorry..

Anyway, beside that I do my best to write everything that seem good.

I keep writing the Detective's Diary.

My only problem is now that I know the story will have many side stories and that will ask me to be

very accurate in it. But, that won't be much a big concern.

I try to avoid getting too dark.

One of the entries was so obscure that I was afraid to wrote it down.

But I did it anyway. Kinda happy that it didn't last long.

Other than that, I think the story is pretty good.

I will explore more themes in this plot soon.

But not yet.

Need to add more characters too, with real flesh out backstories.

I am stuck at the end of the last entry of The Detective's Diary.

I know what the future is going to be in it, but I lack the logical situations.

The dialogue and everything..

I know the ending thought.

It's gonna take awhile to get there..

But the true ending is gonna be really interesting.

Can't wait for it!

I am honest, I am still learning from many things.

The three major things that I am focused on is.

• Writing.
• Drawing
• Programming

These three are the pillars of my mind, if I don't have strenght in one of the three, my fondation might fall.

So this is why I want to take 6 months before making a new game showcase for N.G Noire. The fact that

I have no experience in programming, make this 10 times harder.

Since I have better understanding in writing and drawing. These two are still what makes me keep going.

But the programming part is not left behind. For now I try to focalise myself in things that are way

easier. So my spirit can grow in short time.

I will take a week to comprehend some new programming functions, maybe make a new game that is out of

N.G Noire project, so I can learn new stuff from the get go. Since we are half in the summer now, I think

planning for this year will be about going back to school and get a college degree.

It will take a chunk of my life, but it will be worth it.

It's better than wasting time in a day to day job and getting now where style, since living on paycheck to

paycheck isn't a pleasure. It is more like a torture for me. I have many ideas in my brain, and want

to make big things in my life that matter to me.

I want to succeed and arrive at the top of that mountain than get back to where it all started.

There is nothing to stop someone from making good choices, as long it is possible.

My only problem is that I have to take time for each project.

My project N.G Noire is way more ambitious than I though it would be.

It started with little ideas, than turned into a giant one.

And I realised soon it might be too much hard to begin with, so I prefer

to start smaller. Way smaller than a big game that takes too much of my

time.

If I can compare two projects.

The detective's Diary is a breeze of fresh air and N.G Noire is too big to ever be a real project for now.

The reason for this is the fact The Detective's Diary is a direct result.

But N.G Noire ask me to put even more effort than I ever have.

And with the fact people want to see real good result, it makes me anxious.

So, as a result. I take more time to do stuff with this project than the other.

The Detective's Diary makes me relax, give me more pleasant feelings and people

that read it does't judge me for mistakes of anykind. I see freedom in that project.

But I do no reject the N.G Noire idea.

I just need more skills right now in making games. Which is a pain for me.

I don't know much in this stuff and so I expect a lot from myself.

I should make little games first, than start to go bigger and bigger.

Hope it works.

So, I talk to my family and they like the story I made here.

I know my focus is centered on The Detective's Diary

since after the first showcase of N.G Noire.

But I actually realise I am more of an author and an artist

than being a programmer. At least for now.

My ideas are still there, thought.

Anyway, my big brother told me he wants to know the ending.

That he likes the character and etc. I guess that's on me now.

My mother give me advise for the story too.

She read a lot of detective stories, and like police drama.

So I have her as an advisor.

I started to write stories when I was a kid, and my passion

evolved since then. My knowledge is still rising, I know

I don't know enough in most of things.

But thank god for the internet. I can check stuff before

making it into my story.

I am learning through this.

I hope everyone enjoy the wait before I put more entries

in The Detective's Diary. I really do not want to rush

the course of the story and miss stuff that matters.

Or over do stuff..

I want to respect the promise.

I mean I try to.

Time will tell if I am good at this.

I asked Tom Fulp to edite the text in The Detective's Diary.

Thanks to him, I can finally say John W. Colts is 57 rather than 47 years old.

That and some mispelling got changed.

But the rest will stay the same.

I am near to change many things in the future next entries.

The part where John is with Garry in the cabin is dragging too much.

But, there is a reason to that.

I don't want to ignore any details, but the majority of the information is there now.

Guess a little time skip is necessary.

I am done with all the preparation of the battle John will face on.

A battle against corruption, clonage and much more.

Maybe there is some secrets that John didn't discovered yet.

Anyway, just want to say that I am still working on the game too.

I am not ready to publish anything about it.

But, it's still in my mind.

The detective's diary is much easier to make, since I am better at writting

then programming.

I won't say I am perfect though, need to learn from few mistakes.

My drawing skills are beyond what it used to be.

I will keep on the good work.

From my free time, I worked on The Detective's Diary and posted 2 more entries.

More will come soon.

I never though this story would attract so many readers, but here I am.

The only side note is that I mispelled few things. And I think John W. Colts is a little older than 47.

But other than that, I am quite happy with the results.

I read about many things, to make sure the story make sense.

And took a time to relax too.

My grand mother got out of the hospital too.. Sooner than 3 weeks.

She said she was fine and can walk now. Well, that's my grandma.

Always a surprise to us.

Things are getting better.

I won't be here a lot.

Having some stuff going on in life. It's nothing too serious.

But it could make me move out from where I am living.

So it does make me stress a little.

My projects are not canned, just need a week or something close to that.

I will take time to figure what will be priorized first in that week.

By the way, I have made an interview and maybe have a chance to return in school while getting paid for it.

I am not saying it is 100% sure, but more likely 50% chance.

Story short, dropping out of school isn't good & I am old enough to understand much more than before.

I have tried many jobs, and still found no path in my life until then.

But I may have discovered my passion for making games and stories.

Working 7 to 5 jobs isn't for me.

Since a young age, I actually wrote many stories and done few joke comics.

I was in a manga club too back in my teenager life.

My friends from 2012 were all passionate like me in doing mangas.

So, I am not done in this. I miss my friends too, but..

I guess life want me to be alone in my path.

My hopes are to get successful, to earn recognition from the public for my hard work.

I want my craft to be seen like pure innovation and so on.

And I am just starting.

The doctor did a radio on my grand mother 1 week after she got her accident.

And he told us it would take 2 or 3 weeks for her to recover.

Which means she will be fine.

She even walk sometimes.

I didn't wanted to bring this up in here, but I guess telling the truth is much better than keeping all the negative inside.

But.. There is one more thing that needed to be done today.

My roomate and I are going to file a complain about the water infiltration.

If the judge is in our favor, we might get 5000$ in return for damages and health issues.

Yes, my roomate got some pumps now, because the water created molds in the walls.

She never got that sick before.

Anyway, we will know what happen after we met the judge.

Lets hope he is in our favor.

I will be busy today, and if the judge evict us from our appartment.

Well. I guess time will explain it all.

I won't post anything on the Detective's Diary yet.

Got too much stuff going on.

Oh, and I might go back to school eventually and learn programming.

More on that later.