I changed the profile pic and the background.

So, my life is going great.

Doing good work and paying my bills. I manage to save up some money and I will start working out. Going to a gym and eating healthy food. I tend to avoid junk food, chips, soft drinks and all that shit.

I weight around 280, and I need to loss 80 or more if I want to be fit.

Or gain more muscles. But the goal is to loss fat, and gain more strenght. I will do cardio and basic training.

Probably for 4 - 5 weeks, then real training to get things forward. I might buy some equipment to keep things

working at home, if I feel like skipping my work out at the gym.

Other then that, I will go back to learning stuff online and at school.

I dropped out since my 16, so that's a big goal for me.

My learning curve keep going stronger, I feel like I still can change my lifestyle for the better. Nothing can stop me from this path I choose. Nothing except my will power.

I stopped playing video games, all my friends online are asking me to keep doing that.

But, I don't care.

It's not going to make a good change in my opinion, if I keep playing games. That won't get me anywhere.

I use now a dating app, but got no match yet.

My life is in progress.

And will stay like this for a while. I hope the best for everyone who work hard, I will keep doing art and do great things.

That's about it.

See ya.

The Masked Butler

Intro

I have made alot of choices in my life, some was good..

And some was.. permanent.

No one knows my real name, or even my face.

The only thing that I have is this job and that mask.

I am a butler, I work for criminals and the government.

That's that.

And what I do is clear to me. No one can deny that I have a problem for not caring about myself.

But that's in fact.. My problem.

Nobody will understand my struggles, because I have no friends.. And I have no one to talk too.

Yeah, even with that in mind. I still keep going.

My only comfort that I have found in, is smoking.

Cigarettes, for daily problems solved.

Cigars, for major problems solved.

And weed, when I am with my colleagues. But that happens only once or twice a year.

Anyway, back to work.

Chapter 1# A Great Time

For almost a year I worked for a lady named Ashley. She is 21 years old, and she is the daughter of the man himself. Pablo Castello. Who is the head of a large mafia who does many business in the narcotics.

He is not terrible, at least not with me.

He gives me free cigarettes made from pure natural tobacco. Without any chemicals, tar, and all that shit you don't want to smoke at all.

I make breakfast, lunch and dinner to his daughter. Every single day. She never complained about it, ever. The other butlers tried to make food once, and she fired them all.

"They disrespected me." She said.

I don't know why she was so upset about it though, it's not like I have better skills. I just know which ingredients make the real effect that is expected. As my cooking teacher told me..

But, yeah..

Ashley kinda seem to have a thing for me.

She look happier, smile at me every now and then. Bump into me alot, tells me I am nice..

Even if that makes me smile..

It will never happen..

I didn't tell her but I know she is expecting something..

Something that I have been told to never do, and I have in the past been warned to.

"Never engage in any relationship."

That's still clear in my mind, even after all those years.

I have been roughly trained to never follow any feelings, never become undisciplined. and to never betray the code.

And it sure made me the man I am..

Now, in these moments. I take the time to smoke..

I take the time to figure the way I will work for the rest of this year..

Let's hope nothing bad will happen.

Chapter 2# The Mistake

Every morning, I make pancakes for Ashley.

Today she decided to cook with me. I told her I was fine by myself and she could wait for the food to arrive.

But she looked at me and said.

"Why not doing this together?"

I hesitate, but than decided to accept.

"Sure, but promise me you won't hurt yourself."

She look into me and said.

"I am not so clumsy!"

And with that, I let her join me in the kitchen. I start playing some music and we both dance. She keep looking at me with a great smile and we prepare the pancakes. I heat up the oven, and she does the mix.

After a moment, everything is done.

But soon as she turn and take the pancakes. She didn't noticed there was some oil on the floor and collapse.

"Are you okay Ashley?"

The pancakes on the floor, with the plate completely broken. She only says "Ow, I messed up."

I kneel down and tend her my hand.

She take it and stand up.

"Sorry.." She says with a sad tone.

" I will make more. It's alright." I tell her.

"You don't need to.." She replies.

" Why is that?" I ask.

" Nothing.." She says and seem sad.

And she left, leaving me alone in the kitchen with the music still on.

I turn it off and wonders what the hell just pan out.

Later, that day. Ashley completely ignores me.

It felt so weird, because she never did that.

Her father then come to me and I tell him what occured.

"That don't matter, I trust you. But listen to me.." He start explaining.

I nod and listen.

"She like you." He bluntly deliver.

I look at him and feel nervous.

"But we can't." I just respond.

"I know, I know. But listen kid." He says.

I still look at him feeling a bit confused.

"Love is wild my friend." I said with a smile.

I nod and feel strange about this. No clients ever told me something like this.

" You, you got her heart right now." He says while putting his hand on my shoulder.

" I what..?" I reply all of a sudden.

" You do not know what you have." He tells me.

I nod without thinking.

"Go ask her for dinner with her." He says.

"You want me to make dinner for her?" I ask confused.

"No, I want you to date her." He says and lit a cigar.

"W-What?" I say.

And things went that way.

• To be continued.

I am making a comic book.

I take time to write a story and get to the point.

I won't just post few pages of it.

I will work the whole story, and then post it when it's ready.

Maybe make a comic out of it.

Or a game.

Anyway wish me luck.

So it is official.

I stopped drawing sex.

Kinda bored of it.

I need something new, and more then this meaningless none sense.

I figured, maybe I should write a story that make me interested to draw it and flesh it out as a good thing to work on.

I just think I need more content in my channel. More subjects that are interesting to develop.

Because just drawing sex is pointless.

I feel that I need to walk away from that phase.

And turn to the next page of my life.

I sure got experience from drawing anatomy.

But now, I just got bored of doing the same thing over and over.

I am happy with my decision.

I have yet to learn anything, this is the first phase of my learning process.

My skills are improving, but I feel I need to learn more specific aspect.

Like collision.

When two opponent fight as an example, making the punch feel real.

Like shading.

When the light is present in the surrending and the shade of color is there.

Which express the physics and the realism of the drawing.

And backgrounds.

I need to learn few stuff about making backgrounds, make it feel "Real" and not just a cheap

paint drawing. And more like a real place we can imagine being there.

These three things are what matter to me.

Of course, I can train other stuff.

Like doing sports drawings, or some thematics that inspire me to keep going.

But the fondamentals are there.

If I go on, maybe I will make it to the top.

Or I won't.

But so far, I doubt I have failed.

I decided to try drawing sports.

Not sure how long it will go like this but I am happy to do so.

I train alot, I make 5 drawings a day and write stuff.

I don't have a big project on the work right now. Just want to upgrade my skills, get new ideas in the process of getting better.

If anyone wants to give some advice or tell me anything useful.

Simply comment down here.

Thanks for anyone who encourage me to learn new things!

I have been working on my projects while I got time, being making a game on RPG Maker MV.

It's shit but it is what I do for christmas. There is no big story involved. Just that you need to beat the final boss and it's done. Other than that, I still learn about Construct 3.

I should buy myself a tablet for drawing.

Yes, I also draw. And I do it with my mouse right now. All the drawings are made on ZPaint with a fucking mouse. I am so patient with these equipment. But it's work for now.