Recently I planned to get some ink pencils and piles of paper to draw by hand.

Got like 60$ for myself and I'm going to use it for making comics.

Will update about it if things are looking sharp.

Still working on the game for few days.

The vibe is good but I lack organization and the story is a bit hard to understand after

I play tested it.. Yeah I don't think it will go out on 31 october. Sorry.

It didn't come out like I though in my head.

I used to stress up and rush back from last year.

Today I feel like I should not work too hard.

Don't want to get discouraged too.

Commitment on your own projects is long process and demands patience.

I hope to make it work right.

I always though maybe having a black cat or just a fish to start it off

might help me stop feeling lonely. You know, it would fill the void in

my heart. Always loved to care for another being.

Also work is kinda boring so I might really need to at least

have a living creature in my room to bring me company.

Over the time of this year. I can count on many good things

and few harsh moments in my year so far.

I'm starting with the positive stuff.

1. I lost 50 lbs. I weight now 240 lbs. Which is very good for me after 6 months of trying to get in shape.
2. Got few projects going, The Detective Diary is now 1 year and 3 months old. Still need to write stuff tho.
3. My script about Kyle Megura is now 1/2 done. The first idea was kinda out there but now I know what to do with it.
4. Draw more, but stopped to dump ideas online. Kinda felt like hidding my good ideas will save me on the long run.
5. Helped many people, did few donations here and there. I'm not saying why or how much.
6. Got a new job.
7. Won the case against my landlord. He stopped bothering us at home and he went back to Mexico.

Now the negative.

1. Did couple of few mistakes on the web. Like speaking my opinion and recklessly say stuff that I won't fully mention.
2. Got few people blocking me and for some reasons that I know or don't.
3. Traced arts like The Robin William's portrait or the Samurai Jack fan art. Lost my Scout for these things.
4. Got few critiques about it over and over.
5. One guy sended me his dick pic.. Like ok?
6. The same dude hacked another account and kept going for like 2 or 3 times in 2 days. (Mods dealt with him after that)
7. Someone harassed me and I decided to block him for being an hard ass.
8. One or two of my friends got their accounts deleted. One woman I respected quite alot too. (Still sad about it)

So, even with those few things around this year. I'm okay with everything and won't really care much

about the past. But I learned alot after all.

I'm not really focusing on my mistakes over and over. I'm mature enough to know when things need to

be looked at and then keep going in another path. Being a responsible adult might be a pain in the ass

but if you want to be great in life. You need to learn what is the struggle of understanding fondamentals.

I'm not really here to say I am better than everyone else or say I am the worst. No.

Maybe it's okay to make mistakes. I don't really care what people think anyway.

Just feel like I need to focus on the parts that really make my life better.

Yeah, so I hope everyone is going great in their lives. And will just

say that my next year will be more time consuming for me to

put things on paper. Like doing my projects that I keep saying

that will be done.

It's not an easy job, but I feel that my mind is more strong than ever.

I think I got what I wanted to get out of my chest.

Anyway, being real in this world always bring me pain.

So fuck with what people think or might hate on me.

I love and respect myself. I trust my instincts and wish that the world work harder to

make a safer place for our future lineages.

That's what I work for in my part. And wish you all a great Halloween.

I ate all the candies btw. lol.

Stay happy!

Edit: I tried to fix the line up for my text but it still looks odd. Sorry in advance.

10 years ago, I drawn and written a project to make like 20 comic books.

I dropped the plan after needing a job. Went from one

to another job. But this comic book project always was something

that I kept in my head. But never took full time on it to flesh it out.

Over the years, I started to see what a job is like. You get money

yeah.. But you don't get anything more than that.

I want to achieve something in my life, something that doesn't

center around making cash or just getting it done.

I dunno if I will ever made this comic book serie, but my brain

keep thinking about it ever since.

I bought it for like 7 dollards. And it worth more than I expected.

Strangely enough, I don't even bother about my age that much anymore.

I am quite resolved to accept myself to be still young.

But not in a naive way, I just did some large introspection

over the fact keeping your cup empty is better

for learning and understanding.

(It refer to the story I heard. About the monk who teach a man to not be full of thoughs.

To allow himself a easier life.)

Over the time, I got wiser in some aspect of my life.

I also got close calls in to dying..

Like 4 times in over my lifespan..

So I am grateful to live and to be able to age properly.

It's a privilege on the long run, I started to do training

on a routine too. Lost like 45 lbs in fat, got more in shape.

(Over 6 months of constant efforts daily)

Since Covid-19, I got lazy over making so many simple choices in life.

Like just walking outside.. Yeah I got rid of that problem this year

and might be able to get some physical feat if I keep going on

that level.

Like rising my strenght, endurance and agility.

Oh, and I read non-fiction too.

Kinda tired to read stuff that isn't technically knowledge..

So I am quite literally heading to reach some point where

I won't recognize myself as a lazy dude.

But as a man who own himself and his prowess without the

recognition of others.

Back in my youthful and credulous teenage life. I used to think

people might help me to succeed in everything..

That idea was really naive, and I am happy to have been that

way. I'm not punishing myself to be an innocent kid from this

matter.

To my personal understanding. I accept who I am, who I was and

hope to be someone that will take the role to be a man of his words.

I don't know much about the rest of this life, but that's what I work on.

Anyway, I wish myself a wonderful birthday in advance.

Hope everyone have an happy halloween too.

See ya

We just got the final verdict from the judge.

The landlord who kept stealing and harassing

us..

Now he own us some money.

Yet, the judge didn't allowed full compensation still..

The landlord only reduced 10% of the rent and he

got to pay us like 1k.

The bare minimum, of course..

(We paid 2,5k & waited for 2 years for this..)

Originally it was 5k or more and 25% of reduction of rent.

Yeah, the judge allowed it none the less because my

family gived all the evidences with pictures and

recording of his misconduct.

The landlord also lied in front of the judge too.

Told the neighbors that we were scums and etc.

Oh and he plugged his cable on our apartment to take

electricity. Bill used to be like 100$ maximum & now

it rised to 300$ for like 7 months in a row..

Until we told the police of course.

Yeah, we won. But the thing is we are tired

to see this piece of filth getting slap on the

wrist even after that.

The landlord also went back to mexico..

Anyway, we plan to move out soon.

Which means I will have to get another job..

Ah, I can't catch a break am I..

The game I'm working on right now will only include the intro

and the first chapter.

Since I only got until the end of the month to finish it.

31 october Halloween to be exact.

I think I will be able to complete it.

The full game will take me a year or two

if I manage everything correctly.

The final result might be different than the

first attempt to show what I have in mind.

I am hesitant on how the gameplay will work.

But I will try to innovate and do few things

that are gameplay wise.

Started last monday and so far I love my job.

Beside the fact some co-workers are snubs

and hate my old hoodie.. Anyway, it's a place

with rich people who go there so..

My friend is working only monday and friday there for now.

But he decided to change shift to join me.

He said he also needed a longer shift like

I did. Plus he worked there for like 5 years.

So since he is in the same department

and we both appreciate each other.

It's gonna be less hard.

Also I might buy a chic coat just

to stop the snubs at work to

judge about my appearance

etc..

I never cared much about how I should look

but this place really have a bad judging

eye on how you shouldn't look.

Anyway I think beside that part, this

job is the one for me.

Want to work there for like 5 years

or maybe more than that.

Anyway, that's about it.

So yeah, I made some progress.

Changed the gameplay..

I'm trying to learn how to make puzzles that work and even created a font for text custom made.

I'm making two selectable characters to play with.

A gentleman and a lady.

I am trying to polish it before 31 october.

But so far I have an idea for the game..

Decided to not explain anything very deep about what I'm doing since

it's something new and more logical then just a platformer + shooter.

Armed Slime 2 will come out in November if I got time for it.

But right now I want to make an halloween themed game.

Escape the Dark sorta failed.. I didn't fixed the bugs..

So I am starting from fresh with a more story based game

with horror theme. The atmosphere is what I am focusing

on with that game.

I'm also trying to make the game replayable too.

With random outcomes and multiple endings..

I think I will just post the first chapter and then

do the whole game to post it on steam.

Price would be low, my goal with that is

to create a quality game that is made

for horror sim/rpg/puzzle genre.

I think the price will be set to either 5 dollards or maximum 8 dollards.

Yeah, like a skip lunch money sort of price.

Or if I am feeling like it. Just 2$

Anyway, nothing is set in stone and the game is still

worked on by me. I hope I'll be able to post it in time.