Since my Chromebook deleted all my files that have 2 years and 6 months worth of progress.

I will set myself a new goal February and just take it easy.

I'm still mad at the reality that my chromebook got corrupted

because of a faulty recharge cable and it cannot set itself in

sleep mode.. Somehow and lost all the battery while I was asleep.

That's why it powerwashed itself it seems, unless someone hacked

me while I was listening ocean waves on youtube that night

with my chromebook on. But I doubt that's the case.

Anyway, I'm alive. So I rather take less focus for the past day's event and

just do something easier. I think I'll do a video game or just write

something on my blog or even do a 1 shot story on my profile page in text.

I am really frustrated to see my projects gone without a trace..

Some was finished and others were just thrown ideas for

later after I'm breaking through. I even planned a big game

to work in secret with a check list and the summary of

the plot that I don't even remember right now.

I wrote it in june.. The reason I left it there is because I don't have

the gear to make it right now or the ressources.

Guess I will just set for less quality content for the time being.. Fuck.

Also I may use a pen and paper to write shit on from now on

and also buy some USB keys to save up stuff with that in mind.

I need to not care about my whole fucking work being lost.

It's just piss me off. But I still think I got experience even

with that sad result.

I will relax and cool off for maybe few days.

I am literally angry right now. My chromebook literally powerwashed my files

and I lost all my writing scenarios, scripts, and ideas that I saved up on my chromebook.

Sincerely, thank you Google.

I am done for this month. I'm so fucking done. Everything is fucking gone!

I got no more drawings, all my art files.. Documents that I kept for myself for later. Gone.

This is horridious.. I just can't believe all my work is deleted. I'm fucking sad!!

Man what the fuck is wrong with this piece of junk!

I need a break.

Bye.

For the last year, I failed at making few things.

The manga project was left behind.

The games ideas too..

I still have time to make it right and I need to accept that I'm alone in this.

It's not like I'm paid too. So basically if I want to achieve my goals, I have

to structure my artistic skills. And stop seeing it too far from what's possible

for me to do right now.

I usually have this road block, that is often the vision of everything.

It's nothing like the white page syndrome, but rather the reverse.

I see all what my project looks like, what is the idea and the theme.

But then I get fatigue from doing everything all at once.

I think this year will be about focus on what is possible and not just going

in a "what if" motive. Maybe I will try to do something impossible next year

or etc.

But I need to give myself some room and limit the ideas too.

I'm a visioneer that have no footing. So I rather stay able

to set foot on the ground, rather than going in the clouds.

Yeah, I'm metaphorical. Anyways..

I will stay optimistic and try to give myself a tap on the shoulder

every now and then. When I make something small for now.

Maybe going gradually bigger, but not too big in the long shot too.

What I need to experience in this year, is to learn consistency

and build strong fondations on my artistic vision.

Being less thinking about things too.

That's it for today on my blog.

Have a great day anyone who read my thoughs.

See ya!

I always loved seeing Jennifer Connely ever since Labyrinth. In 1998 she played a role

in the movie Dark City, a thriller sci-fi. She is the embodiement of pure beauty without

exaggeration. There was just something in her that I never saw in any other woman.

Her voice is ethereal as well and her eyes just gives you the desire to be her knight.

Too bad I was like 5 when I first ever saw her. But still, I got taste at that age.

Over the past months, I got so many songs I wrote that I discarded from

my notepad and got rid of in here too.

I dunno, maybe I am too judgy over my writing or maybe I just feel like

it doesn't sound like the original thing I had in my head.

I have often either that guitar that start and this drum following with it.

Then some words occur and then I grab my pencil and write it..

And I hate what I have written..

This is really a waste of my potential.

So I will come to it without making an entrance.

Canadian Animation is quite something else.

Sometimes we get shit, or god awful level of animation.

Or, sometimes we get gold and a very special kind of animation.

Like to name a few in a list here.

• Martin Mystery
• Totally Spies
• 6Teen
• Cybersix
• Class of the Titans

Martin Mystery was about a dude in college or something who work with an agency that take

missions over monsters and etc. There was a comic book based on that, Martin's step sister

was actually his wife in the comic.. Whatever, but the cartoon was okay.

Totally Spies was more a girly show for girls. I actually liked to watch it none the less,

it wasn't all about dumb shit that is thrown in the episode or anything. I liked the friend

teamwork or the funny jokes. There was nothing really cringy about the girls doing

girls stuff. Plus seeing them living together in the start of some episodes and also

changing clothes from episode to episode was quite cool.

Nowadays, most cartoons keep the same outfit to prevent over saturation of work

in animation.

6Teen was great, it was about 6.. Teenagers who all try to make a living while

hanging out in the mall between shift or a break. Jonesy always losing his job

on every episode because he lies in his resume.. Nikki was my favorite on

this show, always snarky and smart. Anyway, I didn't watched all the

episodes, but I know the story vary on all the group from episode to

episode.

Cybersix is one strange take on anime with canadian artist.

It's like a ghost in the shell type of vibe, the heroine is acting

as a guy by day and become a batman female version with

a black panther as a side kick.. Very cool stuff overall.

I didn't watched much of it as a kid, since it was always

too late at night. There is only 13 episodes of it.

Which are concluding to the final. There is a mature

them in it and I think I could watch it now somewhere

on the net at anytime.

Class of The Titans was about teenagers that are the offsprings of

the greek demi gods I think. With one guy being just normal, and the

others were like Hercule, Midas and what else. I barely followed the

plot of it. But it was an avenger thing before the movies of Avengers

in our current time.

And to add few bonus mention that's isn't Canadian but I love about it.

• Archie's weird Mysteries.

That show was a gem on itself. It's a mix of Scooby Doo and X-Files. With Archie writing the stranges

adventures he gets into, like a living murdering car falling in love with him. Or him turning into the

invisible man or fighting a Queen Bee and her hive.. Yeah this was something more than just

you boring scooby doo format. Every episode had it's on take of something you may or might never

though of. I still love to watch that serie from time to time.

• Scooby Doo Movies (Zombie Island & The Witch's Ghost)

These two movies were the peak moment of Scooby Doo to me. The fact there is real zombies

in On Zombie Island was just done right. Seeing them in panic because of a real threat.

I saw this movie on Teletoon. And it always used to play around Halloween.

Then they made The Witch's Ghost. Which had my favorite fictional girls band. The Hex Girls.

I swear, even if Warner Bros tasked the writers to tone down the maturity of the context of

making a "Real Monster" for the team of that time. They really delivered a good side plot

with some amazing new characters. I think I used to have a crush on Thorn.. I just loved

her personality and yes a Eco-Goth is a win for me.

The plot of the witch being real and a ghost to add it. And the final being so horrying.

I just loved that.

I know it came out direct to VHS and of course Warner Brothers were like

"You can't scare the kids from a cartoon made for kids." But damn, the fact

these two movies were a real treat and felt like movies..

I dunno, it was like catching a lighting in a bottle almost twice.

But after that, Warner Brothers really murdered the rest of the new age of scooby doo after that second take of the "Real Monster" movies. The third one was about aliens. But I swear, aliens never was interesting for me.

And when the fourth came out in the 2000s. I just noticed a more toned down of

what the first movie used to have in it.

-Final thoughs about Canadian's animation-

There is always a strange noticeable way the animation move in it, the characters talk in a weird matter.

Or its look okay. But overall I loved that childhood of mine.

I think I'm going to draw these characters. In a more lively matter that is.

I'm not living under a rock.

The situation with California is very sad and scary too.

What I really don't understand is why the fire was not prevented

when they planned 10 years ago to make a larger water supply

with billions of money..

Now is the billion dollard question.

Where the FUCK is the water?

And who took the money?

Karen Bass went in Africa to celebrate in Ghana..?

The mayor of L.A.. What the fuck is going on?

Why nobody stopped her to run from her responsibilities?

She didn't even stood for California.

Why so many cowards are in power in America?

So many questions, yet the money is not there where it

should be and the cowards run with it.

I hope everyone is safe out there and have a place to sleep tonight.

My prayers for the families who deserve some hope and I really

expect some people to be investigated for this.

This has some foul play in it.

Trying to do a one shot for this month.

Just to test my skill in drawing comics.

The rawness and the feeling of "This is what we got so far." In Newgrounds was legendary back then.

I remember watching Madness series, Joe the zombie, eddsworld, any random cartoons from Egoraptor or Spazkid or even OneyCartoons and huh.. Mature section. (That's what it was called back then lol)

Everything on NG had this vibe, this distinct side of Internet that was literally before any social media crap or

the youtube monopolizing everything in and out from the web.

Numanuma Guy started on NG

too. Then he posted his video on Youtube and things went with that.

I dunno, Newgrounds with flash animation and flash games. Was like peanutbutter and jelly on

your morning sandwich. Nothing was close to be similar like NG in the 2000s to 2020..

Then Adobe killed the goose to get the golden eggs. And say: "I think we can't get another egg now.."

I fucking wish there was a Flash spirit successor, and made public this time.

Meaning by that, everyone can make art with it and own their shit from it.

I dunno, nobody likes free stuff anyway. Better slap a 50$ and then you write "You can get it now for 30 days free."

But the 30 days free loop back by mistake.