Right now I decided to focus on relaxing and avoid being over productive.

With my experiences of this year of 2024.

I managed to try many things, yes. But I feel I need to have a grip on myself.

And be less into rushing and become tired on working on projects.

I just want to thanks everyone and I'm proud to have at least tried to make

some progress in being a real artist.

I won't say I'm the best of the century and whatever.

But I'm glad I learned alot this year.

So I will relax and enjoy some time for myself.

Will post some arts if I feel like it, overall.

I do all this for fun, and I just want to enjoy making arts.

The comic is planned. I know I was going hard on it

for a while then I started to slow down.

It's just I'm one guy mostly working on this.. So I should be easy on myself.

If I want to make this happen.

Anyway, I'll post a special drawing on day of christmas.

Rated E.

See ya

I'm taking full time on my comic now.

My good bye will be temporary.

I might answer messages from time to time.

And post occasionally.

But now I really need to stop dragging on.

things that aren't essencial, aren't necessary.

I'm done being all talk.

Thanks for anyone who encouraged me, critizised me.

Told me the truth and said what they meant.

I'll be right back once I got something.

Later & Take care

ZG.

For a time, I check on my past drawings.

Saw many variations of characters.

Even thou I kinda like both the old

and the new..

I see inconsistancy in my art.

But that's not technically a big

problem.. Just that I think

I might work on something

that is better than all of it.

Plus I seem to not be able to do different view

and like camera being up and looking down at the character..

Or feet scene that walks..

I usually do still images, or few tries on making movement.

Fighting scenes are like so rare in my arts too..

I think a did like 2 or 3 that are kinda okay. But didn't test

the water that much..

Tried sports scenes, but nothing that big..

Or doing background view, that tells the setting where the character

will be in.. You know, drawing probs with and without the character

using it. Might be also a thing to add on my check list.

Ahh.. It's going to be a painful slow job for me.

And I didn't even did the story fully.

Also I have to draw the houses of my characters, not like doing a Simpson's house

mistake.. Like the basement stairs if some people get it.

I need to literally do everything to make it set up from the get go.

Plus I have to avoid overworking things, making shallow characters

that just appear once or twice.

Doing backstories that are not similar. Designing them to have their own

personality too. One major problem with mainstream anime and etc..

Is that the characters are so bland. Like the brown hair teenager that

is always the main character and is some what silly somewhat smart.

Always good at fighting or become OP in like episode 3 or 4.

Kirito style..

I am not into that shit.

What I want for my comic is to be prepared for the best and the worst.

Which is a darn challenge.. Specially for me who never did a great

work that much.

I did so many what if comics, my friends online tell me to just start

small and etc.. I respect your opinion.

But I don't want to sleep on that idea anymore.

When my mind to be set on that goal.

About what could be done and etc.. It's just make me sad to back down

on it.

I want to fully be a cartoonist and draw that graphic novel.

Sincerely that's my goal. No big money involved, I don't

care if people hate or even fall in love with my work.

I want to keep my vision clear, don't want to ruin it all

and be able to tell myself I succeed at the end.

Anyway, I think I'm overthinking a bit.

For now I will train on one thing at a time, just to get the gist of it.

No rush, no big announcement and no dead end.

I will post less often too, just to keep my mindset more clear.

This song played in few short videos. And I almost never found it.

Now I did.

It's called Void in Blue by Glare.

The intro is pure bliss. But the rest is a little bit less interesting..

Anyway I'm happy to have finally found it.

https://youtu.be/n8Rp_5lvhFI?si=Ln9ZGSzMUBdopRoC

I fucking don't know what to say beside this.

Mike didn't got KO'd.

But Jake won.

I feel empty. That fight was just a sad joke.

A fucking sad, bad joke.

Tonight I am going to watch the fight.

To be honest I think Mike is not in shape

anymore for this.

He lost his edge and Jake is young and all ready to

piss him off.

I just think it's a joke. All for looking better against the

mighty Mike Tyson.

It's gonna be hard to see the guy who helped Ali to

get his revenge. Being beat up in his 58.

He could win, but yet the fight didn't even started right now.

Let's see how it goes.

For a while, I have tried to make projects work well.

But I must be honest.

I'm starting to feel afraid of not making sense in my work

as an artist and story teller..

I dunno why I'm so hesitant, even though I keep making good

progress overall. I have this fear to fail at what I love to do.

Back when I was a kid, I used to be confident and didn't cared

very much of whatever I drawed.

Until I showed my stuff to my friends, family members and etc..

Most of them where just unimpressed. Or just say "Yeah, it looks cool."

But. I dunno, I just felt let down.

Like a wall just crumble on me, like that feeling of seeing people who

don't get the hidden message or the sentiment I put in my craft.

Yeah, I'm just afraid of that kind of outcome.

Will my work be like this in the future?

Will people forget about me when I'm gone for good?

Will all this really matter after all that effort.

Yeah, I know that sort of feeling is scarier when someone like me

go deep into it.

But I think too it won't be enough to worry to much about the upcoming consequences..

Because doing nothing won't do anything either.

So here I am, thinking about what if.

And mostly what not.

To reassure myself and for people who have trust in him.

I think I will add the fact it takes courage to face our

greatest fears.

I'm not really sure if I got the guts to make it right through

all of this.

Time will tell.

For now I will meditate on it, make sure to deal with the last remaining

part of me who seem to dwell on the past.

Anyway, I'm going to work on everything that I kept in the back of

my mind once this doubts in me is over.

Thank you and have a great night anyone who read this.

See ya.

So, I'm starting to think I should buy a skateboard and film myself

with the help of someone of course. And just have footage to

draw with.

I don't like the idea to use footage of other people because it's

their videos and etc.

Dunno how copyrights and the lenght of legal exactitude will stand

with that thing. But I'm not interested to fight with the risk to do

so.

Plus it gives me an excuse to do skateboarding.

It's been years since I do it, so around april when snow

is going to melt. I'll get a skateboard and try to get

someone to film me for free or whatever.

Anyway, just a though I put on my blog log.

Here is a recent video about him.

Eric Barone is really the guy that inspire me to make games.

The fact he made Stardew Valley by himself and created a masterpiece.

This is what a man like me want to do as well.

I open this beer to my family bloodline.

Armand and Alphonse. My great uncles

who are brothers of my grandfather who

fought in World War II.

Thank you for serving your duty in the army.

I wish I knew who served in World War I in

my family.. But I don't right now.

I pay respect to you and pray for your eternal

resting in heaven.

God bless my country, I salute to my fellow allies americans

and those who protected their countries in hard times.

Thank you.

Amen.